I'm Pregnant!

It doesn't seem like news, but I forget that some people may not know. I am twelve weeks as of May 23, and I got a long way to go. I am due Dec. 5th. (three days before my sister Ashna). I am excited to be pregnant with her. It helps to go through this with somebody, and to get a cousin your baby's age too! I heard the heartbeat last Monday and it sure does validate that something really is in there. Not that I didn't realize it. This pregnancy has been different than the others. First of all, I was feeling yuck almost all day - never throwing up, but feeling gross and tired all day. I know I can't complain too much. I know many others who were sick ALL day and throwing up all the time. All I can say is that I feel for them, because I can't imagine doing any less than I did the last few months. I felt like a bum. Also, I look 15-16 weeks pregnant already. My stomach knew just what direction to go in - OUT! I don't fit in any of my clothes and it is a little depressing thinking, "how much bigger am I going to get?" (and no it doesn't help to tell me "but this is your 6th baby" - Why should that mean I have permission to get even bigger? I know I don't want that! :) I know it is all worth it and I just need to tell myself, "you are pregnant - not fat!" If I can just get that in my brain I will do fine! I am working on it. Some days are better than others. Pregnancy is really not much fun, but thinking about the new little spirit coming into our family helps on those rough days when I think "now why did I do this?"